I love food. Like. There literally isn't a food I don't like. This last year has been a lot about finding a balance, eating more intuitively as opposed to being on some kind of rigid plan, and I've made great progress. However, I still struggle. I kinda have this weird relationship with food that ebbs and flows...I've really been trying to eliminate feelings of guilt over food which has been super helpful. I enjoy my food a lot more now as opposed to picking apart it's macro-caloric content as I chew. So progress has been made. But still. My greatest struggles occur in the evenings. It's been this way as long as I can remember. I don't usually even feel tempted to eat crap throughout the day. Probably because I know I need to fuel properly to function the way I want to. But in the evening, I want to kick back, wind down, relax...and indulge.
Everyone says that to negate these evening munchies you should survey what emotions are being felt and deal with those directly as opposed to through food. Well. Yes, I'm a stress eater. But. I'm learning that I also just really like to indulge myself. I indulge in Netflix. I indulge in Instagram. I indulge in online shopping, albeit window shopping. Okay. So there have to be other things that would meet my indulgent needs that are not cold cereal, a greasy grilled cheese, or a whole jar of peanut butter, right?
Just a bit ago I indulged in listening to my recordings from teenage hood. It wasn't just hilarious, but insightful. I've indulged in massages...which I wish I could do more of. It'd be great if I would indulge in more songwriting. Or vocal exercises. Or trying new outfits and hairstyles. I try to be a productive person from start of day to finish. But most nights, I'm done. And frequently a victim of exhaustion.
Since my mantras in life include doing EVERYTHING I want/feel compelled to do - "no limits" - as well as a hard focus on continual self-improvement, I'm compiling a list of self-indulgences to try out. We'll see how I go about implementing them. Perhaps it's to try a new one every day for two weeks. Some evenings don't call for anything beyond dinner, a Netflix episode (or three) and finishing up emails and random business items on my ever-evolving to-do list. And that's great. But when the urge for cinnamon toast crunch begins to lurk, I will now turn to these lovely ideas...which I'm trying to keep from being anything too terribly productive. Some may require more energy, but either way I want them to be things that are seriously JUST FOR FUN. Please comment and give me more ideas! I need them!
Read a book.
FaceTime my nephews.
Call a friend to catch up.
Study a Scriptural verse or two.
Cut a t-shirt for a funky new style.
Play piano and sing covers.
Watch some Ted Talks.
Follow a make-up tutorial on YouTube. And then take a lot of selfies.
Here's to healthy, uplifting indulgences!